Tuesday, August 27, 2013

v 1 7 .

On my mind lately ? 
Blessings . 
And two words : Blessing Minded . 

It's been a pretty easy thing for me in the past months to have doubts in the way that life is going . 
Things are SO good, but still, so many questions to ask . 
Are we really ready for a baby ? 
Should I have really quit my job ? 
Should we really live where we live ? 
Will all of these years of my boy's school really pay off in the end ? 
Am I really living up to my potential ? 
Will be really be fine financially ? 

It's easy to push out the little blessings of each day when my mind is so wrapped into these . 

But earlier this month, the day before my boy | my love began his first day at dental school, he left me a little gift on the kitchen table . Sweet , sweet boy - ready to begin what will be one of the most challenging + milestone-ish parts of his life, after he has worked SO hard to get here - buying M E a gift . 
Nonetheless, a beautiful gold locket lay in front of me . 
A blessing in itself, as it took my boy looking at nearly 40 different lockets in different antique stores to be able to find the perfect one, though chainless . So he worked to find the perfect chain as well . 
And a note lay there too : 
It's the end of something good, 
and the start of something G R E A T . 
Wear this to remember how blessed we are . 

Inside my locket now, that I wear nearly E V E R Y single day, I have a photo of my boy + I on one side + a photo of our sweet babe . 
| To be updated in three short months . A H | 

Blessing Minded . 
I decided I wanted to be just that . S O  much more than I am each day . 
Being mindful of the abundance of blessings in my lives . In the lives of those around me . 
Not giving up on asking the earlier questions - there will be plenty more I'm sure - but remembering in the midst of them all, how blessed I am . We are . 

To be living where we live | Knowing who we know | Loving who we love | 
Feeling how we feel | Moving how we move | Doing what we do .
Blessings first in my mind . Before the worries and doubts and questions . 
Our blessings aren't questionable in the least . 

So blessing minded I am today . And blessing minded I will strive to be tomorrow . 

Sunday, August 18, 2013

v 1 6 .

Another little change in my life is the fact that I will N O T be returning to teaching this week with my fellow teaching friends . And though it's strange to be passing aisles of school supplies and not brainstorming what my classroom needs + how I'll better arrange my furniture this year + thinking about new curriculum components + who my students will be, it's not all that strange that I feel happily content with it . 
My job has no doubt been an issue I've wrestled with for some time now . Only 5 years through a career that I spontaneously made the switch to my first week in college, and I'm going to be through with it ? There really were  S O  many components of teaching that I loved : the students | making a difference in childrens' lives | learning alongside little people with such a fresh + innocent perspective on life | teaching them academic skills, but life skills too | arranging my classroom + configuring the P E R F E C T aesthetics for making every learning day beautiful . 
But there was still a large part of me that felt so constricted + limited by all that teaching brought . So many expectations and so many deadlines and so many tasks to be done and people to communicate with and skills to teach and benchmarks to meet and assessments to give and performance evaluations to have . And while there is always mixture of unloved tasks along with what you really L O V E a job for, the balance somehow was off for me .  And I never wanted to be that person that feels stuck in something they don't L O V E just for the sake of being comfortable . 
Life's too short to go to a job, only to cry each day, wondering why you're there again . 
Life's not too short to overcome challenges . And it isn't too short to wait for a wise opportunity for change + a shift in perspective . But when you know in your gut that something isn't right + you've already overcome challenges + there is a wise opportunity for something new,  T H E N you don't keep crying + keep the job . You hand it over . So I did . To someone who will love the job more than I could . 
I finished out the school year the day before we left for Hawaii + Minnesota + now that we are back home + my boy has started H I S new adventure | dental school |, I'm onto new adventures too . And I feel S O good about it . 
And things changed a bit since I originally resigned . As in --> a  B A B Y is on its way . And so my plan to find some full time work with the creative arts has shifted once more to me figuring out what to do for the next four months + thereafter, with a babe in arm . 
And that, my friends, brings me to this , my latest independent arts endeavor :
|  C L I C K   O N   I M A G E S   T O    O P E N   W E B P A G E S  |


Stemmed from my love for W R I T I N G . Writing letters + words in lovely ways . Writing anything + everything and making words into small fragments of art . I love collaborating with others who L O V E the beauty of words + design as much as me . I love that I can make this happen whenever + wherever . For as long as I love it . Which will probably be a very long time .

L | C remains an ongoing adventure as well + I hope between these two operations to L O V E what I'm doing + feel like I am doing the right thing for me + my boy + our babe + this lovely life .  There will be M U C H  much more to come concerning my life solely as an artist | designer , so stay tuned .
But in the words of the song I shared for our anniversary just days ago, all right now is
S O   G O O D .
S O   S W E E T .
S O   R I G H T .
And I am S O thankful for that . 

Friday, August 9, 2013

v 1 4 .

Someone please tell me where time has gone . 
Because today marks 5 whole years that have gone by since I married my best friend . 
So much has happened since that sweet August day back in 2 0 0 8 .

And it feels as if what's happened in these 5 years is barely scratching the surface in terms of what will happen in the next 5 . I won't say that I've loved E V E R Y second of E V E R Y day of the last 5 years . I have never been a good liar . But I will say that it took E V E R Y second of the last 5 years to become what my boy + I are today . I honestly don't think 5 years ago I even imagined him being A S incredible of a person as he is . We've learned S O much about each other + there is still so much more to know . 

So, consider this an ode to my love , my boy , my husband , my baby daddy . 
Once again , consider me a lucky gal . 

These are the words I ' ll be singing today , from our day . 

I love you Swenny .

Thursday, August 8, 2013

v 1 3 .

You heard it . 
Right here . 
Bebe Swenny is on his or her way, scheduled to arrive sometime around December 4th . 
| Bebe Swenny is just our fancy name for a B A B Y belonging to the S W E N S O N S |
This has obviously been the N E X T big thing in our lives right now .
And my boy + I could not be more thrilled . 
C O M P L E T E surprise ? Yes . 
But a C O M P L E T E joy ? Yes too .

So we have 1 7 weeks from  T O D A Y  to make room for this sweet babe in these sweet 600 square feet of home , which , if you ask me , is M O R E than sufficient for an 8 pound human being to fit into . 
The baby swings and luxury cribs and glider and high chair and play mats and strollers and all ? 
No , those may not fit . But I think our Bebe Swenny will fit perfectly in my arms or the arms of his or her papa . 
And that's probably the only places it will need to be . 

No , we decided N O T to find out if our baby is a he or a she , but that makes December 4th an even more incredible day for us . I ' d make my guesses too , but I ' m sure I ' d be wrong with my 5 0 / 5 0 odds and would carry the guilt of having no maternal instinct around with me forever . 
Kidding . But I ' m sure I ' d be wrong . It ' s not hard to fool me . 

So , our stay in Denver + our new home move helped start the cycle of N E W N E S S in our lives , but I think it'd be safe to say the our Sugar Baby on it's way will stir up the biggest change of all . More than the dental school start for the Papa or the career change / indecision / lack thereof for this Mama or the N E W start to a S I X T H year in marriage happening T O M O R R O W or any of the rest of the things happening in our lives now , this Baby will be a brand new A D V E N T U R E . 

And we love every second - 2 3 weeks worth of seconds - of it . 
More to come , obviously , of this new love of our lives . 

Wednesday, August 7, 2013

Lucky | 3 Words

Me .
I am the L U C K Y one . 

Because 6 years ago today I was the only ever lucky gal to hear the words 
I  L O V E  Y O U 
come from the lips of a boy named Ryan Swenson . 
And to this day , I'm still the only ever L U C K Y one that has .

Believe me , I remember this day well . 
My boy + I had dated for about 4 months + he had told me a month or so earlier that one thing he had never done was tell a girl he loved her . He told me that he only wanted to ever say it to one person . And should I hear him tell those words to me , I could K N O W that he K N E W I was the girl for him . Forever . 

Oh , the butterflies I felt when I heard those 3 lucky words . 
So , August 7 . You're a good day . 
A good day for a L U C K Y gal like me . 

Tuesday, August 6, 2013

v 1 2 .

One of the first plans to change this year was our anticipated move to M I L W A U K E E . 
My boy was accepted into the Marquette School of Dentistry and we visited over the holiday season . 
And I  L O V E D it .  
And I thought it was perfect for us . 
And a new start . In a new place . New people . New sights . A new place to call home . 
After all , Colorado had been our home for 4.5 years already . 
And that seems like a good time in one place before a G O O D B Y E / H E L L O somewhere else . 
I thought . 

But we were surprised to find out that the School of Dentistry at the University of Colorado also wanted my boy in their program . And they did what they had to do to get him to go there over Marquette . And with their in.state tuition they swept our Milwaukee.driven hearts away, with the realization that in paying off a few hundreds of thousands of dollars in student loans , less is A L W A Y S better . 

So Denver it was . 
B U T  there was still this nagging for a new start . In a new place . New people . New sights . A new place to call home . 

So one afternoon , we decided to look at a place for sale for the fun of looking . And that looking turned into an offer . And an accepted offer by the end of the afternoon . 

And that accepted offer led to us quickly realizing we now owned two homes + needed to sell our beloved 5 2 2 to move onto N E W things . B E T T E R things . 
S M A L L E R things . 

For some reason in our time here in Denver , we have always progressively downsized in our moves - going from 1 , 0 0 0 square feet to 9 0 0 and now , 6 0 0 . 
In our new home , 3 1 3 1 . 

And from that February 9th afternoon that led us to buy a new house across town we  fixed up + packed up + consolidated up our 5 2 2 .
 We got the keys to 3 1 3 1 on March 2 0th .
 And we gave up our  5 2 2  keys on April 1 9 while I was on a trip to Cali . 

And just like that, we had our new start . In a new place . New people . New sights . A new place to call home . 
And I couldn't love it more . Really , I don't think I could . There was always this complex with wanting something new but not wanting to give up the old . Wanting change but not - at the same time . And I really did think it'd be harder to give up our 5 2 2 than it turned out to be . We had been there 3.5 years + had so many F I R S T memories there + we had completely made it our own + I didn't know if it'd feel right to have someone else own it . To give up what we'd worked so hard to make. Our 5 2 2 had evolved , slowly but surely , over those 3.5 years + by the time we said goodbye , I loved it more than ever . 

But the home that we had made was more than the house itself . So much more . And once things started being packed away + once wall colors were neutralized for selling + once our evenings were spent at 3 1 3 1 , 5 2 2  was just a house . 
Sure , our initials will always be engraved on the front + back yard trees and there are plenty of signs that will forever be left in that house , recalling our days there , but it is just a house again . 

And these days we love calling 3 1 3 1 our H O M E .
3 1 3 1 tour to come .  And more of my life to come . 

Monday, August 5, 2013

v 1 1 .

 Almost six months have passed . Again . 
This A L W A Y S happens to me . 
Life, that is . 
It's like my life + my blog think they live in different worlds . 
Can't have a life + blog . 
Can't blog + have a life . 
Someday, perhaps, they'll decide to marry + this place can be a real C U R R E N T representation of my life instead of simply a catch.up . 
But for now, here's the catch up . 
And as much as I could gab on + on about the sixty billion N E W facets of my life, I'll take it easy . Take it slow . One little facet at one time . 
One . Or two . Snapshots at a time . 
So many different snapshots of life have been collecting over six month's time + each one holds such a treasure . With some snapshots, they were immediately recognized as G O O D and immediately gave us a million reasons to smile . 
At other times, different snapshots have also held uncertainty or an incredible sense of mystery .
They've felt like the photo above . 
My boy + I staring at them , not quite knowing what to make of them, but knowing they must be  G O O D . 
And in time , we have seen just how good each has been + will be . 
Life is + has changed for me , my friends . 
A  S N A P S H O T at a time . 
Thrilled to share each piece with you in days to come .        - k